My Penance

SUPER DUPER BOWL PARTY

2007-03-07T17:31:20Z

well the party was fun even though I did lose like 30$.... sigh

we did get to eat come killer bread and soup. And we did finish off all 6 jugs. w00t It's funny how wine is such a different drunk. Like my perception of everyone was so different than it normally is... and that was from both drunken wine perspectives.

Nothing to special did happen though. Well, nothing that I can remember that is. It was so nice to be able to get everyone together and feed them and get drunk off wine.

HOW DOES IT FEEL? To be on your own? Like the great unknown?

Oh Bob Dylan. Can I please tell you how I could NOT live without your music.

So I started a weight watchers diet the other day... we'll see how that goes.. sigh

WHEN YOU GOT NOTHING YOU'VE GOT NOTHING TO LOSE.. HOW DOES IT FEEL?

Life right now if an effing blur. How DOES it feel to be on my own?

Im excited to start working again at the art school.. and for it to be warm again.

And I know exactally how Im going to decorate my room at camp!

camp concerts! God this summer is going to rock!

Im in 3D maybe I should do something now..

thoughts.

2007-02-27T07:36:54Z

Thinking = chaning my mine

recently I have been driving myself insane. Or for as long as I can remember since attending this school. My thoughts drive me in circles and those circles drive me to forget my thoughts.

- today caitlin and I discovered our lives are like that scene in garden state where he takes ex and sits still on the couch as everyone else at the party is moving fastly around him.
.life goes fast. if you let it.

But is a fast moving life a good one. Is there a "so called light" at the end of my tunnel?

Am i going to find whatever it is I am searching for before it is to late.

You know it's funny. "to late."

I dont think there is a person who has never thought about suicide or even the idea behind it. But once it comes down to you in a car almost hitting somebody or slipping your footing while hiking or whatnot. We always find ourselves afraid of death. Odd. Death is odd. Life is odd. These thoughts sound childish and stupid. Thoughts I have Come up with before.

I dont think my thoughts are changing perhaps I am just getting better at writing them.

I want to stop and thank you baby. How Sweet it is to be loved by you - i wish

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Today after 3D Britta and I went to go look at houses for next year. We basically decided on a four bedroom on 7th street. 4 bedrooms living room one bath and kitchen. It's a plit level very cute layout and interesting oldness.

After that Britta and I just hung out and then went tanning.

. off to practice of art. - That class really boggles my mind. I have never had something so simple taught me and make me want to drop out of school at the same time. That class is pointless! They teach you things you already know or really dont care to know.

It' funny how society steals your money.

Forcing you to get a cel phone.
Without my cel phone I felt as though I was out of the loop and had no friends nobody could ever get a hold of me to hang out.

Forcing us into school. you cant nail this without schooling. this is 5000000 to go to this school. blah blah.

I REALLY QUESTIONS MYSELF AND WHAT I AM DOING

dont we all.?!/ is there and end?! Should there be one? do I want one. ?.

(IT MAKES NO SENSE AT ALL CAUSE BABY I SAW RED)

Still at work

2007-02-20T02:58:00Z

Still at work still bored..

Life lately has been interesting...

lots of questions and things concering life.

In the process of:

-applying to study abroad in italy this fall
-getting ready for this summer:
-camp david
-peninsula art school
-getting a car
-NEED MONEY
-launching my website
-getting a new camera
-..will add more later...

long time

2007-02-20T02:38:01Z

I Havent written in here for some time now.

wow.

Im sitting at work at the phonathon....boring

if only the money I fundrasied I got to keep.

Going over to Britta's after this to smoke with caitlin em and britta and then do
some aerobic strip tease... w00t w00t

peace love and harmony

Friends only.

2005-04-21T00:00:53Z